My story
Since I was a child, I felt drawn to something beyond what I could name—the beautiful light on the shimmering leaves, the silence before a summer storm, the crackling of the fire, the strokes of the Sun on my face, and I knew that everything around me had a kind of voice, a way of expression. I was curious about everything: the herbs, mushrooms, the wild animals, the wise mystery of the forest… I was wondering about the faraway lands. I observed the way people shared their stories, and I could see the invisible between us. I often sensed things others didn’t mention—some comforts of the mystical, unseen by the normal eyes presence. But I quickly learned to keep those things to myself. They made others uncomfortable. So I tucked them away, buried them deep in myself.
I grew up this way—half in awe, half to myself. The turning point came when I had a near-death experience during the birth of my daughter. It was a deeply personal and profound moment that have changed me. In that in-between place, I encountered a love more vast than anything I had ever imagined. I saw how beautiful and wise creation truly is. I felt our deep interconnectedness—not as a theory, but as an embodied experience. I met kind, compassionate beings I now know as my spiritual family. That experience left me cracked open and very surprised. But instead of feeling inspired, I found myself struggling—quietly trying to make sense of it all while caring for a newborn, facing postpartum depression, and dealing with serious personal struggles. My health crumbled. One was sure, inner knowing that had once been tucked away now filled my days with intensity.
In that challenging time, I found Reiki. It was powerful. It gave me space to feel a little more like myself again. The treatments and the practice supported me in ways that felt real, honest and empowering. I was able to get in touch with my inner luminosity and it was such a freeing experience. Suddenly I did not have to be doing anything to be worthy of existence. I healed from many health and emotional issues. I worked through some old traumas. I learned to put boundaries. It didn’t happen all at once—but over time, I started feeling more whole, more grounded in who I really was. Reiki, to me, is a path that helps us reconnect with our true self—our natural state. It brings us back into balance. This is that inner luminosity. Reiki became more than a method—it became a homecoming. I wanted to learn working with it for myself first, and then to support the people I love. I was taught Usui Shiki Ryoho and Usui Reiki Ryoho—the Western and Traditional Japanese lineages. Each offered something different: one gave me structure and a systematic foundation, the other a deeper return to self, to inner stillness and connection with my intuition. The more I practiced working with energy, the more open I became—to others, to the world. I started deeply loving life again.
Sometimes, during my practice, spirits began coming asking for help to cross over. At first, I didn’t know what to make of it. It was humbling, sometimes overwhelming, and yet it felt strangely natural—like a remembering rather than a learning. With the guidance of my spirit allies, I began to support these crossings with compassion and reverence.
Wanting to better understand these experiences, and to meet the spirits with more clarity and skill, I turned to shamanic practice. I was especially drawn to Core Shamanism, a path centered on direct experience and based on relationships with fully compassionate helping spirits. Slowly, I learned how to intentionally journey, how to listen more deeply, how to hold safe space for others, and how to stay grounded while working with what we can't always see. These teachings didn’t pull me away from the world—they helped me live more fully within it. They gave me structure, discipline, and also great comfort—an even deeper connection to the world around me as I walk this path of service.
Reconnecting with my roots, I also began exploring the practices of the Szeptuchy—traditional Polish folk healers, sometimes known as whisperers. These women, often living at the edges of villages but at the very heart of their communities, were deeply woven into the lives of those around them. Their knowledge was carried in memory, in stories murmured at dusk. They deeply listened and observed. What they knew came from the land—through watching people, plants, and seasons with quiet devotion. They often practiced whispering prayers in secret. Their ritualistic healing was simple, but remarkably clever and effective—bringing balance echoing Slavic nature-wisdom, in deep respect for the powers of nature and the mysteries of spirit, much like shamanic traditions around the world.
For me, they offer a way to honor and engage with ancestral knowledge. This path not only inspires and enriches my shamanic practice, but also deepens my sense of belonging—to the land I come from, to my lineage, and to the strength of the women who walked before me.
Compassionate Inquiry is another approach that deeply inspires me. Developed by Dr. Gabor Maté, it’s an approach to understanding how our early experiences shape the way we live, feel, and react. Through this lens, I began seeing the roots of my own patterns with new clarity. It helped me integrate my spiritual experiences with the body, with emotion, and to do it with real human tenderness. I currently study this method as part of deepening the way I accompany others.
Today, I walk this path with open hands. I don’t claim to have answers. But I know what it’s like to fall apart and piece yourself back together. I know the healing that comes from being seen—not judged or fixed, but truly met. I believe healing happens in the small, honest moments: in silence, in laughter, in breath. And it’s my great honor to walk beside those who invite me in—not as a guide, but as a companion. Someone who listens. Someone who is. Someone who knows that sometimes, presence itself is the medicine.
Outside of my healing practice, I’m deeply passionate about nurturing and caring for children. I also find great joy in helping parents reconnect with their creativity by teaching them how to make simple, ecological toys from natural materials. It’s another way I see healing move through everyday life—through play, attention, and loving hands at work. I truly believe that rich nurturing in childhood fosters long-term health, resilience, and empowerment.
With love,
Kaira
